1 Peter 1:15-16 “But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation;Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.”
At times, I feel as if there is a hole in my holiness.
I have seasons that are high with Spirit-filled work that bears much fruit and others that the work of the flesh has left me as dry as the desert.
I do not think that I am alone in this at all. Even the great Apostle Paul struggled.
Romans 7:18-19 “For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.”
It seems that the holiness present with me in the Spirit-filled times leaks out somehow.
Is it laziness?
Choosing sin over sanctified living?
And they all have one thing in common – Where I was looking.
I find that when I take my eyes off of the Savior, His Word and His work; the activity of my life changes. I think, feel and act more carnal. When I realize that I am distant from my God, I try to read my Bible and it doesn’t speak to me like it used to. I get discouraged and a voice is heard; “He doesn’t care whether you read it or not – you have better, more important things to do.”
It is then that I know who it is that is speaking. God would never lead me away from His Word. My holiness leaked out because I allowed my eyes to be on my phone instead of in my Bible. I allowed my heart to think of my problems instead of bowing my head in prayer and arranging my priorities with the God who has my day already planned.
Our holiness doesn’t leak out in a big burst like the popping of a balloon, It is like that slow leak in your car’s tire that once a week you make a stop to fill it up. Unless we take the time to stop the leak permanently, we will constantly be pulling aside to fill up again and again.
I need to covet a tender heart to want to be holy. I know I cannot do it on my own. It has to be God in me and through me. Pride creeps in to think I don’t need God.
I need Him in every aspect of my life.
This Sunday night, I have been asked to preach to our church in my Preacher’s absence. I consider this an honor and a priviledge. This whole week has been spent offering up prayer as to just what it is my Heavenly Father has for His church. I have learned that this is not the time to preach on my pet peeves, or what ‘I’ think is wrong with the church or attack a problem area I see.
This is His church, not mine. He knows best what is needed and it is my heart’s desire that He guide me to be His mouthpiece.
Many things throughout this week have bombarded my mind to try get me off track. I could have found a hundred things to poke holes in my holiness; to let leak out what God is trying to do in me.
This is a battle whose end is only complete in death. You and I will fight the flesh until we die. Until this body of flesh lies cold in the grave, and our soul rises to be with the Lord in Heaven forever will I finally be relieved of my duty to fight, to contend and to win the battle over my flesh.
Press on weary one!
The victory is ours!
It has already been won!
Take hold of His hand and allow your Heavenly Father to walk you through your day and see just what He has in store for you!