Psalm 51:3-4 “For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.”
Most people will have a “come to Jesus” time in their life when the veil is ripped away, and all is very clear and very real. That time may come by a matter of our own will desiring to know God. That time may come when our loving, Heavenly Father has had enough of our wandering and causes us to go to Him.
David had that moment after he had committed adultery with Bathsheba, conspired first to deceive her husband, Uriah, to sleep with his wife to cover up his sin. Uriah proved to be the better man in integrity for he could not take such liberties while the rest of his fellow soldiers were out in the field fighting.
Then, by his own hand, Uriah carried the message, written by David that sealed his fate by putting him at the forefront of the battle to be murdered. David anguished in his sin for months until Nathan, the prophet, came with an illustration.
The illustration of a man whose lamb was stolen by a rich man to give to guests who had come. The rich man didn’t need the man’s lamb; he enough of his own to choose from. But, Nathan pressed David with what should be done.
2 Samuel 12:5-6 “And David’s anger was greatly kindled against the man; and he said to Nathan, As the LORD liveth, the man that hath done this thing shall surely die: And he shall restore the lamb fourfold, because he did this thing, and because he had no pity.”
To which came Nathan’s reply:
2 Samuel 12:7-8 “And Nathan said to David, Thou art the man. Thus saith the LORD God of Israel, I anointed thee king over Israel, and I delivered thee out of the hand of Saul; And I gave thee thy master’s house, and thy master’s wives into thy bosom, and gave thee the house of Israel and of Judah; and if that had been too little, I would moreover have given unto thee such and such things.”
From the time David committed his sin, until now, he lived under the shadow of his own guilt and shame. I believe we see a bit of how he felt in Psalm 38.
Psalm 38:4-7 “For mine iniquities are gone over mine head: as an heavy burden they are too heavy for me. My wounds stink and are corrupt because of my foolishness. I am troubled; I am bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long. For my loins are filled with a loathsome disease: and there is no soundness in my flesh.”
From the time that David sinned to the time that he got right with God, he lived under the bondage of sin.
Any saved, child of God knows what that feels like. The Holy Spirit will not let us alone until we make things right. We can resist Him. We can neglect Him and ultimately grieve Him. But, until we come like David; humble, transparent, and desiring forgiveness, we will be miserable.
When we realize that our God knows everything from the number of hairs on our head to the things we’ll say before we say them. There is nothing that I can hide from Him. My confession is just an agreement with what my loving, Heavenly Father already knows.
But when we do, there comes relief of the stress and burden of carrying such a weight. I know personally that the more transparent I become, the higher the confidence I have in my relationship with my God.
Add that transparency in our relationships, and we can enjoy a deeper intimacy. With God, there is no risk of hurt, rejection, or pain. We risk more in our human relationships. But with God, we can be most vulnerable, transparent, and open to let Him see and explore the depths of our soul.
When we have nothing between our heart and God, we can enjoy such peace and joy.
Psalm 51:12-13 “Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.”