Secret Life

2 Chronicles 16:9 For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him. Herein thou hast done foolishly: therefore from henceforth thou shalt have wars.”

Each of us has a secret life.

It is that part of ourselves that we don’t allow others to see; the inner thoughts, fears, and musings that would not fit the person we want them to know. We entertain thoughts in the secret parts of our mind and, if left unguarded, can spill over into the light for all to see.

It struck me as I read today – “How does one have a perfect heart toward God?”

David, a man after God’s own heart, gave us some insight as to how to have such a heart.

Psalm 101:2 I will behave myself wisely in a perfect way. O when wilt thou come unto me? I will walk within my house with a perfect heart.”

His behavior was the fruit of the meditations of his heart. So, what influences outside of himself needed to be guarded as well. What he saw was as important as the company he kept.

Psalm 101:3-4, 6 I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. A froward heart shall depart from me: I will not know a wicked person. Mine eyes shall be upon the faithful of the land, that they may dwell with me: he that walketh in a perfect way, he shall serve me. 

David also knew that there was needed cleansing of parts that were even hidden from his view.

Psalm 51:6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.”

Psalm 19:12 Who can understand his errors? cleanse thou me from secret faults.”

I believe that David allowed God to walk in the innermost part of his life to inspect and take control of all that he thought and did. We call it transparency. 

To be transparent with God takes knowing parts of His character that allows us to fully and wholly trust Him. 

I am loved.

Simple thought. We often mistakenly apply human qualities to God in this respect. We think God’s love is dependent on our actions; on what we do for Him. The more I do, the more He loves me. The less I do, the less I am loved. 

God’s love for us is unconditional. Independent of our behavior, He can lovingly take us back after our worst failure. The punishment and payment for the sin we’ve committed is paid for in Jesus Christ. My obedience and work for Him is or should be, out of the love I have for Him.

I am accepted.

God knew what he was getting when He chose us. There were no surprises. There were no hidden personality traits that would cause Him to reject us. He saw us entirely open and raw as to who we are; and yet, He still chose us!

There are things I may have said or done where I may not even want or like me – but God says, “I’ll take him.”

So, knowing those two thoughts (there are more), I can open myself to God in the innermost part of my being. I can discuss with Him the inner workings of my own heart to ask things like; “What is it that holds me to this specific sin?” “How do I change what I believe about this person, situation, or circumstance?” or “Father, would you open my understanding to see things as You see them?”

God has already put it out there that He knows how many hairs are on my head, the words before I say them, and the thoughts before I think them. To see God as Creator; MY Creator should humble us.

Men of God like Moses, Joshua, Joseph, Job, Daniel, and David all had these similar traits about them. They upheld their walk with God as paramount to everything else in their life. They found that their openness with God begat confidence that was unequaled by anything their will or character could ever work up.

The trust that built between them and their Heavenly Father was sacred to them. None of these men were perfect. The Bible records their humanity for all to see. I believe God allows us to see that despite what we may see or think, His love and acceptance goes beyond our human capacity to comprehend. 

During those times when I don’t even love me, God’s love draws me to a place of confession, repentance, and a restoration of fellowship that He longs to have with me. Being honest about who I am, what I’ve done, and where I’ve failed, opens my relationship to become transformed by the One who created me to be so much more.

We are so fearful of letting others into our secret place. 

God knocks and asks for entrance. He already knows what’s behind the door, and yet, He still wants to come in. It has to be our choice and our desire to grant Him access to our innermost sanctum. 

The depth of any relationship is measured by how deep we allow the other person to experience in our life. I believe it is God who calls us today and asks:

Proverbs 23:26 My son, give me thine heart, and let thine eyes observe my ways.”

To experience God on such a level of intimacy is what He created us to enjoy with Himself. We fear God will reject us. We fear He won’t like what He will see when we open ourselves up to Him. We fear we’ll lose the love He has for us because we think our faults and failures will disgust Him. 

The remedy for it all is in the giving of His Son, Jesus Christ. He bridged the gap. He repaired the division caused by sin. He took the punishment and payment and removed it so we could enjoy fellowship with Him.

When we relinquish our fears and give way to His love and acceptance, we can enjoy a deeper and more fulfilling relationship with our Heavenly Father!

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